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such a long time

so its been awhile.,in fact more then just a while.if you know me then you might guess the internet got shut off and if you did that then your right.lol.i went hunting today and no i didnt get anything.i wish i did.maybe tomorrow will be better.tomorrow is also thanksgiving and im spending it with coleys family. its nice to be accepted by her family.they seem more like a normal family.i bought a new gun yesterday and im pumped to sight it in.coley wasnt to happy.lol.ill right more tomorrow.

busy

wow ive been busy working and looking for new schools.i want to go someplace else besides SC4.i want to get into a digital media program someplace good.ive been thinking of CCS but im not sure yet.friday my art history class went on a field trip to a art muesum in ohio and it was awesome.all the way back we made signs says things about tension and motif.i took pictures of people while they were driving.one guy held up his dog and possed.it was a lot of fun.

we are back together!!!

its true im happy once again.me and coley are back together.

bad news

so the other day i lost the best person in my life.i screwed up big time and i feel it every second of everyday.i never cried over a girl but i have never been attached like this.coley left me.we are still talking and want to get back together.its been rough.she did it thursday so sweetest day was super hard.i still got her something because i still love her and she still loves me.i feel like shit and it sucks.i deserved it though.i just want her back.our 14 months was gonna be this wensday the 24th.i still see her everyday and i still miss her more then ever.its so hard not to hug her and kiss her.if we dont get back together then my plans for life are gonna change but im not sure how.i would get out of this area for sure.maybe florida.im not sure yet.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD NEWS

theres a art institute in novi now.im going to talk to someone ASAP. i know its expensive but education is the key right.im gonna try to get scholotships and grants.maybe i can go soon.im super excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a little poem

we stay awake through these dreams.sleep all day waiting for these eyes to wonder. the deepeset thoughts laying the in back of our minds.thoughts of which we cant explain nor remember hours later.seeing everything so clear but yet blind to the outside world.open eyes wide shut.closed eyes behind open dreams.and that is all they are DREAMS.