busy

wow ive been busy working and looking for new schools.i want to go someplace else besides SC4.i want to get into a digital media program someplace good.ive been thinking of CCS but im not sure yet.friday my art history class went on a field trip to a art muesum in ohio and it was awesome.all the way back we made signs says things about tension and motif.i took pictures of people while they were driving.one guy held up his dog and possed.it was a lot of fun.

we are back together!!!

its true im happy once again.me and coley are back together.

bad news

so the other day i lost the best person in my life.i screwed up big time and i feel it every second of everyday.i never cried over a girl but i have never been attached like this.coley left me.we are still talking and want to get back together.its been rough.she did it thursday so sweetest day was super hard.i still got her something because i still love her and she still loves me.i feel like shit and it sucks.i deserved it though.i just want her back.our 14 months was gonna be this wensday the 24th.i still see her everyday and i still miss her more then ever.its so hard not to hug her and kiss her.if we dont get back together then my plans for life are gonna change but im not sure how.i would get out of this area for sure.maybe florida.im not sure yet.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD NEWS

theres a art institute in novi now.im going to talk to someone ASAP. i know its expensive but education is the key right.im gonna try to get scholotships and grants.maybe i can go soon.im super excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a little poem

we stay awake through these dreams.sleep all day waiting for these eyes to wonder. the deepeset thoughts laying the in back of our minds.thoughts of which we cant explain nor remember hours later.seeing everything so clear but yet blind to the outside world.open eyes wide shut.closed eyes behind open dreams.and that is all they are DREAMS.

little caesars

so i know work at little caesars.today was my first day.it was actually kind of fun. its like a normal job someone my age would have. my old work was just not cutting it. i had no schedule which would of been fine but with no motavation to work it wasnt.i know im lazy bit now i have to work.it also helps that i know 2 of the co-managers.each shift is 6 hours which is kind of long but i do get a half hour break.tonight i closed which was cool because i left with pizza and crazy bread.lol.now i can get my cat fixed so she wont have babies.speaking of that our other cat should be having kittens anyday now.im really looking forward to them.they should be really cute.

volunteer work

i think i wanna go down to new orleans and help with school building.im not sure why but i think that if i did it would help me better understand myself.i would be more mature and resposible afterwards.it may even help with my school.i know what i want to do in life but i think that doing this would help me with getting to know myself.i would take pictures the whole time to bring back and for memories.i think its a good idea.it cost 200 for my food and housing i just pay for my way there and anything extra i want there.im gonna try and go.

design something???

lately ive been really wanting to do some designing with photoshop but cant think of much.i have some ideas but cant really find the time to sit down and brainstorm.me friend jeremy and i want to design a shirt and see if ew could sell them.i think we are going to call it fiction clothing.i cant seem to come up with much.not only have i been wanting to design something but i want to take pictures. i have some from a couple weeks ago from a sunrise that i am just now putting up.why?i have no idea but better late then never.ive been in this artistic mood and whenevr i sit down to try and sketch something to design it gets hard.i think i need to start carring my black book around to sketch whatever comes to mind.i can always write down ideas i have for blogs and things i think about through the day.

its back

my internet is back on.yay.i havent really done much lately besides homework and i cant find when chuck is on again.i did hear though something about a job fair type thing at specs howard so i think im gonna go.

NO MATH CLASS

yay but it kind of sucks.i know dont have class til 1:30 and i have no idea what to do.im sitting in coleys mom office because she teachers here.i had a awsome trip to lansing with coley to visit her cousin.coley seemed really happy to see her.we went to dinner at hooters.lol.yay.im still really tired from staying up to watch the govement come to a end.our state is becoming a piece of you know.its sad that the people we elect cant get along when we need them the most.they wait right up to the last minute and then still dont solve it on time.whats that teach younger people.its stupid.they need to get their act together.