bad news

so the other day i lost the best person in my life.i screwed up big time and i feel it every second of everyday.i never cried over a girl but i have never been attached like this.coley left me.we are still talking and want to get back together.its been rough.she did it thursday so sweetest day was super hard.i still got her something because i still love her and she still loves me.i feel like shit and it sucks.i deserved it though.i just want her back.our 14 months was gonna be this wensday the 24th.i still see her everyday and i still miss her more then ever.its so hard not to hug her and kiss her.if we dont get back together then my plans for life are gonna change but im not sure how.i would get out of this area for sure.maybe florida.im not sure yet.