today was dillon viewing and it was the hardest thing ever.as soon as i saw him there it finally hit me.hes gone.everyone was crying and hugging. i smoked cigerettes for the first time in a while.he layed there so peacefuly and had a smile like always but this time it wasnt because he was making a joke or something was funny.out in the parking lot all of us gathered and remembered him.we played the song the sky is the limit by lil wayne and it really hit the spot.his friends werent dresses but instead flat brim hats and dresses like always.it was like we were at a show but not fun.he had brass knucks laying next to him which i thought was hard.people were leaving hats and things for him.as i write this now i still have tears.its so hard.ONLY 17!!!!this shit isnt supose to happen.every time i walked up there i couldnt help but cry.seeing him like that.when i swa my great uncle it wasnt even this bad.seeing all the faces i havent seen in a while and now seeing them but with red faces and tears.thats now the way i want to see them.dillon wouldnt of wanted that.he would want us to be happy and smiles like always.the funeral is this thursday and that is gonna be the worst pain ever.i cant handle that.there is talk about us all placing graffiti stickers with our tags and notes so he can take them wiht him.i dont know if they go on his "bed" or in his "bed" i guess i find out in a lillte bit.but i know hes looking down on all of us.hes with us and hes still smiling.this is gonna be hard time for everyone.when i was in the back huging with friends i could here moans of pain and sorrow from people and it just made me cry more.but we gotta stay tough for him.he still has our back and we still have his.hes not gone because we still have memories of him.
DILLON LEIF ULMER
JUNE 6,1990- SEPTEMBER 9,2007
STAY TOUGH "D"
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Hang in there. It's really hard to lose a friend, especially one so young and in such a tragic way. But each day gets easier. Remember to hold on to the good memories and lean on the ones you care about... especially Coley - why because she is "the Best Girlfriend in the World." She won the award. And no more smoking:)
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